AWAY.
Sofia Melka
Age: 19
Location: Wick, Scotland
Photo by Dennis W Melka
Ravel
Would that wool’d not cared for
the callous. The weave and the
braid are one and the same.
Stroked into myth, the pattern
brings you home. So the claim
goes. Not quite, the knit sinks, too.
The work is in the work.
The side of your face
is warm with candlelight.
This is everything: half-shadow / half-light.
Watch from the window. Wait out the wind.
The sea is many a wall of sound.
Burrow into worry, bury your bad dreams
in the backyard. Maybe they will
grow up later.
Forget the tremble, the shudder
of the shutters, whatever wages out
-side, wages on. Rain as fingers,
fingertips, fingernails. Rough hands
palm and press, push flat the wool.
Spools of thread at the foot
of the bed.
What are you kneading?
The loom splinters in
the corner. The moon.
Palms full of pins + needles.
Like alms. Outside the water
is pooling. The grass is fraying out
in the storm. The room gets warm,
warmer as the yarn is passed around.
So much breath for everyone.
And if there were children,
they would pant in anticipation,
waiting their turn for the good
ending.
Birds. A single gull waits with a mouth wide open. Hungry in hoping.
Slope away into the sea. All my bridges lean into the sea.
Slant. Hearing chanting back back back telling you
to slacken the rope, pull the boat back.
Then you tie it to the iron on the rock.
The knot is not Gordian¹, but it is good enough.²
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¹ Afternoons spent sieving through sand searching for seaglass. Whalers sailors & their bottles of beer. All shards come amber. Long island beach mottled forgotten with bottles & the bodies of old bonfires. The wayward sailors would float but are weighed down by all the coins in their shoes. & their fists sea-frozen shut if pried open would thaw in relief releasing many pennies & gold bottlecaps. Though very heavy they look like light sleepers. Mouths open wide. If they were not buried so deep a crab could crawl out.
² If you swim out to the deep end If the waves your body bend If found blue & beached & If they find you too The pattern the grammar the thick knit of it will land you I promise back to me.
Author’s Note:
At the start of the summer, I did the Northern 500. In Wick, I was told about fishermen's jumpers, Aran sweaters. Someone could know where to send back a drowned sailor's beached corpse just from the knit pattern of his jumper. A very recent google search suggests that this is generally unsupported (quite false). A touristic gimmick. Suddenly, it's September and I'd been listening to a lot of Buffy Sainte-Marie, her song "The Dream Tree." It brought back Wick and those sailors.