CHAOS.
Mali Delargy
Age: 21
Location: St Andrews
Written: Last year, midwinter
Photo by Ava Gomez
The Vinegar Barrel
We are forked creatures who
Can’t help sleeping in each other’s laps
Spindle sided, the sight of daffodils
Prove we are unfulfilled.
I cannot stop being alone
I am a cynic stuck in a barrel
I am a vinegar parsnip
Flaccid and foul
And my insides out
Outstretched, upturned neck down
A big, long straight road
Tumbling a helix
And I cannot prevent the butcher
From opening my neck
Vinegar spoiled
I spy along a crippled field
Thousands of bird-leg hay-stalks
A mutiny forest with tufts upheaved
Clutching the earth, unsellable
Things are terribly embarrassing
And they are imaginary –
Things harboured in that head
Curdle in that stomach, perhaps
It is god yourself who creates it.
Human insufficiency starts
With the grown parsnip
In need of pickling -
In the Needle of desire,
revulsion, sex, love and
I think it might be stinging.