CHAOS.

Mali Delargy

Age: 21

Location: St Andrews

Written: Last year, midwinter

Photo by Ava Gomez

The Vinegar Barrel

We are forked creatures who

Can’t help sleeping in each other’s laps

Spindle sided, the sight of daffodils

Prove we are unfulfilled.

 

I cannot stop being alone

I am a cynic stuck in a barrel

I am a vinegar parsnip 

Flaccid and foul

And my insides out

Outstretched, upturned neck down

 

A big, long straight road

Tumbling a helix

And I cannot prevent the butcher

From opening my neck

Vinegar spoiled

 

I spy along a crippled field

Thousands of bird-leg hay-stalks

A mutiny forest with tufts upheaved

Clutching the earth, unsellable

 

Things are terribly embarrassing 

And they are imaginary –

Things harboured in that head

Curdle in that stomach, perhaps

It is god yourself who creates it.

Human insufficiency starts

With the grown parsnip

In need of pickling -

In the Needle of desire,

revulsion, sex, love and

 

I think it might be stinging.